I am a very blessed woman. After my update yesterday I had an
outpouring of messages from friends and family telling me to keep fighting the
fight. Others reached out to let me know that they are experiencing the same
things in their own weight loss journey. While I wouldn’t ever wish this struggle
on anyone, it was so comforting to know I am not alone. I want to assure you
all that I am not giving up, I am just examining my options. I feel like I am
on the wrong path and it is time for a course correction. The issue lies in
that I am not sure what my path should be. It will take some time but I am committed
to figuring that out.
The other day I mentioned the concept of Intuitive Eating, for
some reason this is really resonating with me. It consists of 10 principles
that I want to examine more in depth beginning today with principle 1. If
you want to check out the website it is: www.intuitiveeating.org
Intuitive Eating
Principle 1: Reject the Diet Mentality
The basic premise of this principle is that you have to
dismiss and dispose of all books, articles, magazines and websites that you
have access to on the topic of weight loss. I have a freaking library….no word
of a lie! Many of these books have never been read and many have been read over
and over again. I call it my library of dreams. What the people behind these principles
say is that these tools are lies and it is time we get angry at all of the lies
and misinformation we have been fed. Every new twist, every new gimmick, every
new diet is just another way to prey on people desperate to lose weight. This
is a big business and for good reason, we keep buying what is being sold.
This is the first principle because if you even allow one
small hope linger that a new and better diet might be around the corner, you
have no chance of truly discovering intuitive eating. Holding onto the dream of
the quick fix simply makes learning to eat this way impossible. I get it, I
really do but my god does it scare me! My whole life has been centered around
my weight. I am a professional nutritionist AND a professional dieter….how
messed up is that? The hope that the
next thing I try will be the miracle is what keeps me fighting the fight. If I
ever stopped searching I always feared that would mean I was giving up. This
is not me giving up. This is me
giving up on the false promises, this is me no longer buying the bullshit that
so called “experts” are selling, this is me looking internally for the answers
rather than externally for the solution but this is NOT me giving up on being a
slimmer, healthier woman.
This is going to take some work. There will be white knuckling for sure. I will
have to unsubscribe from numerous blogs/newsletters I get. I will have to get
rid of my books (book burning anyone?) because I don’t want to pass this poison
onto anyone else. I will have to stop looking at the magazines at the grocery
store checkout (go screw yourself “First for Women”). This might be extra difficult for me because I
work in an industry where weight loss is a big part of it. Nutrition is my livelihood
and my passion. I just have refocus my energy from researching all things
weight loss to all things health. Ultimately I will have to quit Weight Watchers
to forge the path on my own but I am not there yet. I still feel that glimmer of the “next big
thing” in the back of my mind. Like I said, this is going to take some work but
I am not afraid of a little hard work.
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